isn't it funny how things go from non-important to ultra-important, and vice versa? i've become totally indifferent when it comes to this blog. and my interest in photography just keeps decreasing. it might have something to do with the darkness. it might have something to do with all that's happened around us recently. and it might have something to do with the fact that i'm only a week and a half away from defending my phd thesis, which has been in the making for the better part of a decade by now. later, i'll take pictures, i keep thinking. later. but later never happens. later is always now and now there's something planned.

gotta put that lomo in my coat pocket again. gotta load up that blackbirdfly again. gotta finnish that more-than-a-year-old roll of film in my holga. gotta do dat gotta do dis. godadado.

enough wining! do something about it, i think.

yeah.

tomorrow.

now, i'm gonna go hug my kids. i'm thinking of the children that couldn't stay. i'm thinking of the parents that had to go. i'm thinking of k and l and their loss. i'm thinking of m and his loss.